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So, WTF you might ask...

Fri Apr 19, 2013, 12:01 PM
I offer this as an explanation, for those that wonder where I've been and what my terse posts have been of late.

I'm at a turning point, not so much a fork in the road, as my path is clear and there are no choices that haven't already been made, but a turning point in that the trajectory of my life is about to dramatically change, and for the better. There are many unknowns, but no fear.

I've been in a relationship for 22 years, 18 of those married. 

That relationship hasn't been a healthy one for a long time, and it's over in terms of how we defined it when we set out on this road together. There will be a relationship, we'll be parents together until we shuffle off this mortal coil, but the terms of that new relationship are yet to be defined, and it will not have the binding impact it has had in the past.

That relationship has brought me, among other things,  4 amazing kids that remind me that no matter how little I have left at the end of any day I've got more than any man can ask for.

I'm rediscovering myself, my friends, and forging new relationships that excite me in ways I've not known in my life. As much as the present turmoil is difficult, I've never felt this strong, this sure, this happy. Ever.

Writing has often been a coping mechanism, a way of examining a thought or a feeling, a way of soothing an exposed nerve, or of exercising some emotional demon in order that I might continue.

For the past 4 months writing hasn't been enough, and I've spent countless hours in the gym, logged over 500 miles on a bike and restored the soft, lethargic body I'd settled on into the lean mass of energy I'd been proud of 2 decades previous. Not only am I happy, but I feel physically alive again, filled with energy. I'm driven, unstoppable.

I'm not reading much right now, and I'm not writing at all. I have no big emotions left that haven't been dealt with, no exposed nerves. 

I'm catching breath, feeling the earth beneath my feet and readying myself for a dizzying ascent into the future. When I come back I'll be writing from a place of strength, and with a sense of purpose. I'll be starting to finish, and nothing will stand in my way.

I want to thank all of you for your time and attention, for your support and your kind words. I want to thank you for your encouragement.

I want to apologize for not being here, for not having the mental bandwidth to read and respond to your work. You deserve more from me, but I'm afraid I haven't had it to give, and I don't know when I will.

This is not an exit speech, this is not goodbye, this is merely me interrupted.

Take good care of yourselves, all of you, and keep a light on if you will until I return.

Best,
:Steve


“Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.”

"It was in love I was created, and in love is how I hope I die"
Paolo Nutini
  • Listening to: Blue Rodeo : Lost Together
  • Drinking: Water

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Stephen R. Smith
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Current Residence: Ontario, Canada, deviantWEAR sizing preference: XL, Operating System: Mac OSX, MP3 player of choice: iPod, Favourite cartoon character: Calvin, Marvin the Martian, Personal Quote: It's not what you're capable of, it's what you do that counts

NOTE: Please don't ask me to donate points, either in public or via PM. I support things I believe in entirely at random, and never on request.

There are a few of you who know I'm happy to put up prizes for Lit contests, and those few of you should feel comfortable asking, but if I don't know you, no offense but the answer will always be no.
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vespera 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
:) thanks for the recommendation to be featured. That was a pleasant surprise. I hope you're well
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:iconhell-on-a-stick:
you still around, SRS?
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:iconcheekyapple:
Thank you so much for appreciating my work Wolf & I, I'm soo glad you like it .
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moonfrogflying Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for adding Sunset to your favourites, I really appreciate your comments too.   :)
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:iconbynyagmur1905:
thank you sooo much for the  lamaLlama brigade Llama brigade Llama brigade Llama brigade Walking llama Walking llama Walking llama Walking llama Llama Love 
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Michaeldavitt Jan 20, 2014  Professional Writer
wishing you all the Best with everything that is going on in your life

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MSpaintdog Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
And a happy new year to you, sir, as well!
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libelle Nov 27, 2013   General Artist

Happy birthday! :heart:

May your wishes come true...

:BlackEyedSusan: - NaNoEmo 09 

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LadyLincoln Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, Steve. Your support and positivity always warm my heart.

With love,
:heart:
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:iconlonewylfe:
Happy birthday :hug:
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Metarex12 Nov 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday!
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moonfrogflying Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Wondering when you will return...  Happy Birthday by the way.  May your year ahead be wonderful.
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LadyLincoln Jun 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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I've been dropping your name lately. [link]

Hope you are well.
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lintu47 Dec 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Merry Christmas! :santa:
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randomaxes Dec 25, 2012  Professional Photographer
congrats Stephen :)
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msklystron Dec 14, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
:wave: Merry Christmas to you and your family. I got this link from another dA. It's tap guitar, an instrumental by Kaki King. I thought you might like it. [link]
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flickrBLITZshimmer Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
thankyou graciously for thellama
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:iconlonewylfe:
Happy birthday! Hope you had a great day :)
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LadyLincoln Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, Steve.

Thank you for your always-constant support and friendship. I hope your day was as wonderful as you deserve.

With love,
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